Author: pavanneh

Retired Navy Cardiovascular Technician/Respiratory Therapist. Wife, mother, grandmother.

A difficult day today

I was wondering how many people start out with such enthusiasm and within hours find it hard to want to put your fingers to the keyboard. I hadn’t even realized that I had not finished this. I am procrastinating doing what I should be doing. Which is making a schedule of my day to allow for working on each thing I want to accomplish. My writing, my co-writing, posting in my RPG group’s stories. I just started school again too to get my Six Sigma and Project Management Certification. You would think that I would just sit down and do it. But, I have to admit that there is a part of me that wants to be childish and stamp my feet and say I don’t want to.

Okay, but then what do I want? Do I want to just sit and do nothing? Do I want to vegetate and allow my mind to dissolve into jello as I watch the television? I don’t think so. Getting up and moving is what I need to do. Both physically and mentally. It is too easy to give up and so much more rewarding when you don’t. Even if the successes are small, they are at least successes and movement forward.

Walks in the woods

ImageOn a walk in Red Clay Park with my family last summer. I started taking pictures of all the various types of fungi and mushrooms that were growing around. I was fascinated by all the different types and colors. Purple, red, yellow, white and pink, white and yellow. Some small, some big. It never ceases to amaze me the amount of color and variety there is in nature. I wish human beings would take the time to appreciate what is around them. The beauty that can be found in a mushroom for example, or the bend of a tree. When I was walking this morning I tried hard to relax and just enjoy the walk. But, I have a goal in mind to finish the whole walking path, no matter what and to lose this weight that is causing me so much trouble. It is important to have goals and want to complete them, but It is just as important to enjoy the ride. It can be hard to do both. Especially when you find yourself at your wits end, in pain or in a financial hole that you don’t think you can get out of. But, at times like these it is vitally important to stand still for a moment, feel the sun on your face, allow the breeze to blow through your hair and smell the beginnings of spring in the air. It can lift the spirit and give you something to smile about even when you don’t think you can smile anymore.

One of my favorite sayings is “As the sun rises tomorrow there is hope for a better day.”