So onto part 2 of my Leibster Awards write up. I just want to state that all of these people have wonderful blogs themselves. Lively and full of self exploration.
Nicole Davis: http://triumphantwings.wordpress.com
Annabel: http://annabelmcquade.wordpress.com/author/annabelmcquade (She was the first one to ever nominate me!)
- What is your simple pleasure in life? That one things that puts a smile on your face.
The smiles of my grandchildren. Listening to music.
2. If you could talk to one dead person who would it be? Why?
It would be my father. I do not like to make promises I cannot keep. I have tried very hard in my life to ensure that when I promise something I do it. My father bought a little farmhouse that was built in the 1700’s, early 1800’s. It did not have electric or water and all that needed to be put into the house along with other significant repairs. My father asked me, I didn’t know he knew he was dying, to make sure the house doesn’t get torn down and that I would finish restoring the house. When I promised him this I thought he would be around for awhile and that we would work on these things together. I shared his vision for the little house. He died shortly after I made the promise and it has bothered me to this day that I allowed my husband to talk me out of keeping that promise. I keep thinking I should have at least tried. But, I admit I was overwhelmed by the thought of it. So, I would say I am sorry to him.
3. What is one thing you have lost that you wish you had back?
Time. I wish I had the early years of my children’s lives back. I was working hard, harder then I really needed to in retrospect and I lost so much time with them. Time I will never have back. It wasn’t worth it.
4. If you were in your dream home, describe how the view from your back window would differ from your current view.
There would be large picture windows and French doors that open to a large deck. There are stairs that lead to a path that slopes down through the trees. Over and just beyond the trees you can see a large lake. Calm and sparkling in the evening sunset.
5. Do you share your blog with family/friends in real life?
Yes. If they wish to read it, they can.
6. Do you have any annoying habits?
I bite my nails and I say “Awesome” a lot. Especially if I am nervous. Not great habits for job interviews.
7. What habit do you find the most annoying in other people?
That they interrupt others and don’t allow them to finish speaking.
8. What is one life event you never saw coming?
My breakdown on leaving the Navy. I thought I was so much stronger than that. I fell apart for awhile.
9. At what age did you truly grow up? If you haven’t yet, what age do you think you will grow up?
Lol..I haven’t. I don’t think I really ever will. But, the age of 25 was a life defining time for me and that was when I really started to change and “grow up”.
10. If you could go back and tell your younger self one thing, what would it be and why?
That I am worth so much more than anyone thinks. That while it matters to me what my family thinks, I cannot let it define me. That it is okay not to get married. That it is okay to try and be my own person. That if don’t love yourself you can’t really love someone else. That it is okay to love myself.
11. Tell us about something that made an impact on your life.
The day I was saved from myself. I was 25 and had left my husband and gave my baby to my father and step mother because I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. I might have ended up living in my car or on the street and I wanted better for her. Anyone would be better than the piece of trash that I felt I was. I had “escaped” with my boyfriend to CT and was staying with my mother. It was a horrible situation. I had just gotten a call that night from my father who said I would never see my baby again. They were going to take her from me. They had told me they would keep her until I found a place, not that they were never going to let me see her again. I fell apart. The next day I took a bunch of pills and sat in the cemetery across the street and waited to die. I figured that I wouldn’t inconvenience anyone. I felt a warmth, a presence. I felt warm, comforted and safe and I felt above all else love. A voice in my mind told me to “Get up. Get up and get help. God is not done with you yet. You have more to do. You have a purpose and it is not done yet. As you have heard, “God does not make Junk.” Is your life really worth the opinions of others? Get up.” So, I got up and went home. My boyfriend took me to the hospital and they had me drink the charcoal and throw up. But, there were very few pills in my stomach. I don’t remember there being any pills. That was my miracle. Because my Mom was on pretty heavy medications at the time. I truly believe that I was saved that day. That was the day I made up my mind to not give up, to get up and keep going no matter what and find what my purpose in this life is. It was the turning point in my life.
If you could choose any era to live in (including modern day), what would you choose?
I would choose the modern era. Primarily because of women’s rights. I don’t think I could live in a society that didn’t allow me to think and say what I choose. If you ever read the book “The Handmaid’s Tale” it will really make you think about the position of women in society and how terrible it could be. The women in America really take our rights for granted.
What has been your favourite post to write so far?
This one. Answering these questions and learning how to link to others. It is interesting the questions people ask.
In a zombie apocalypse, what weapon do you choose?
I had originally thought a machete, but decided that you have to get too close to use that. The next best thing a pipe bomb or a bow and arrow. You can make new arrows and you can shoot them from a safe distance. I really hate Zombies. I hate the thought of them and definitely freak out even now during a Zombie movie. I can’t watch the walking dead.
Do seals have to write essays, and what would they write them on?
They write on Kelp paper so they can eat their essays when they are done.
If you were stranded on a desert island and could pick one person to have with you, who would it be?
Survivor Man! If I could survive his ego that is. But, I think I would want my husband with me actually.
If you could choose to be any animal, what would you be?
A cat. They can hunt, they can defend themselves. They think they are God’s gift to the world. They purr. They give love and yet if they don’t want you, they can just leave without a second thought. They can see in the dark. I think that would be cool.
What’s your idea of a good evening?
A nice dinner and a movie with the family at home.
Interview with a Vampire by Anne Rice. A favorite series is: Dragon Riders of Pern by Anne McCaffrey.
If you didn’t write, what would fill the gap?
Garden, read. Play Dragon Age and Guild Wars.
What’s your happiest memory?
The day I met my husband.
If you had one wish, what would you wish for?
I would try to make a multifunction wish. I would wish that humanity would make the happiness and fulfillment of their fellowman and the preservation of our world their single purpose. In so doing they would find sustainable energy, have peace, love one another.
One of the other questions I had was what was a favorite song of mine:
This song makes me smile and tears come to my eyes. I love the melody, I love the words.
I am going to work on nominating more people later. I just don’t want to lose this post like I did the last one. I want to do more research and find some people that have not been nominated. Take care, love and blessings to all who read my musings.